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a moment in my desk
I am thinking… about my life… my future… myself… In that moment, I write things… a lot of it. My mind is filled with dreams and schemes… I hum melodies that I never even heard of… I make myself the most deepest thinker that I could imagine. my crowded little space is filled with things… my phone, colored pens, papers (many of it), medicine, thermometer, filecase… my camera. far as I notice… this isn’t going somewhere, the words were so shallow, like a child describing everything it sees… but on second thought, THAT’S WHAT YOU THINK. between every line is a piece of me, unwritten but felt… pieces of paper with numbers, pieces of paper with drawings, pieces of paper with words… all of those things symbolize me. SILENCE can never bear my hatred because since the day that I exist… It was my best ally. MY HELPER, MY CO-CREATOR. my imagination has already been to a lot of places because of this SILENCE. I have my own way to escape, even to face anything. and that way can always be found in my little DESK.
jack n’ jill nips
… and when I looked, there was just the two of them” and there I was… eating in front of the computer… I was avoiding to eat the green ones because I want them last. now, after some time… I realized. There are just two of it. they were left to be alone in that wrapper. REALIZATION: -you just can’t really choose who’s going to be staying with you. at one point or another… I’ll be going to pick one of them. one is going to be alone in that colorful wrapper where there was once so many of them… she’ll be the loner kind… the only green now. when they were grouped by the manufacturer, she must have felt very nervous knowing that they were going to be a set of chocolate-coated peanuts… a lot of them will be there. and maybe she feared being lost in a sea of incoming confections. she was waiting there, looking at the different colors made available by the advertising team. then she bumped into another green. they were really the only greens there… lucky for them. but now… they’re left in a brutal goodbye… they were given a lot of time to stare at each other… only to be made as a subject by a person with a very wild imagination and later on to be eaten. but at least… they left a very SWEET legacy. sweet indeed.
rescue team
“I am very proud of you.” Breathing… I promised myself I’d be your life guard. I’d be the lighthouse that would shine just so you could see where to go. I promised… To be your life saver. I promised to keep you on track everytime you get lost. Just so you would know… that I have always been here. I promised I have to be strong for you, sometimes I shake, but there I was… smiling. When you call, I readily answer with the most clear voice I have. When you grow to become who you want to be… when you already figured out where you want to go… I’ll be watching you with pride. I’d be letting you go with peace of mind knowing you’d be fine. I am sure you’d be. I may not let you see how proud I am… but inside my mind, I’m seeing everything you had and will become. I’d still be here… far from resting… To readily listen to your pains, your joy, your achievements, your downfall, your getting back up again, your life. God still want me to be here for you… He still bless me with the time to see you live. You’re doing good, don’t worry. When you get lost, I’ll be looking for you no matter what. no matter how long it takes to find you again, no matter how many people give up. Just stay there… Don’t move, Don’t go anywhere. I’m coming… faster than anyone would. You’ll be fine.
bull’s eye
you can’t love me. I may not be the one. I may not be able to meet your expectations… I may not be there every time you need me. you can’t love me. I still have to fulfill what my I was destined to do. I may not help you out. I might become your greatest fear… I don’t want that. you can’t love me I am not brave enough to face that state. I might end up with doubts… I might not let go if you choose to leave. you can’t love me. I’m afraid of leaving you when everything’s done. I’m afraid of you leaving when everything starts. I am afraid of everything there is… but you did. And that’s the reason why I have to wait. until I am braver than this, stronger even. …so you wouldn’t have to worry every time. until I learn everything I need to know. …so you wouldn’t have to explain everything. but until then… I’m going to know you even more. know you better. So the wait will be worth it. while you don’t even have the slightest idea… 6(^_^)9
supernova
” one of the most amazing sight in the world is having the chance to see something that only few can.” breezes sway to calm the soul the night descend to shine few knew that hearts would fall and wished to be called “mine” melancholic nostalgia sings in it’s glorious affair with cold but not a single soul mourns in a story that is yet to unfold dreams starts to wake up and reality seem to sleep distorted and beautifully messed in what serendipity keeps. brightly explode across the sky and make an undying heartbeat for this night would never cry when two souls dare to meet
in the eyes of the unknown
whispers are all that’s heared.. none had ever thought of that. It was pure luck I guess… Strand of wind scattered all over the sea… floating carelessly… never thinking of the sun that might burn them… the moon was outside but the earth was illuminated… even in the core… the clouds slowly fade unveiling the slopes of the earth the waves overlap each press to the next sudden burst of suppressed air filled the atmosphere… but everything was just simple as that… no stone barrier was crossed and destroyed… all, was moved with honesty… and by sanity everything stayed the same. but history will remember… pages will see it… and it will be brought to the future… with the smile that knows. and a heart that beats.
deadliest sins
Wrath,with so much pain it is in rage breathing, hungry for revenge alone in the darkness of his cage it’s hanging on it’s soulless pledge. Pride, It swallows its body even before it was born for never it will be seen sorry lifeless inside, empty and torn Lust, in veins it silently creeps deceived and lied for what must be true from what seems shallow, it seeps engulfs the mind without a clue Gluttony, it yearns for contentment but never will it be satisfied provides a never ending torment for its soul sings hunger inside Envy, breathes in other’s misery as it silently pleads for other’s downfall antagonist in every tragic story an empty core, most bitter gall. Greed, urges to own everything there is even the least, and unknown matter it pleads to have even the slightest breeze for its soul drowns in darkest water. Sloth, resisted the slightest move of hand let even the wicked and rotten denied the most kind and purest command weak, cold and beaten.
safety blanket
Safety blanket??? yes I have one of those safety blankets… But I am scared… that someone might grab it away… I realized something… I started asking… Was it really mine in the first place… have I owned it already? I realized I haven’t asked, until now. but then… I’m gonna hold my safety blanket just right…. not to tight that it might get creases…. not to loose that I might drop it. just right… just in case, Someone more worthy asked for it when I can’t own it any longer… then it’s easier for me to let it go… without getting it creased and dirty. My safety blanket will also be safe… and be saving someone who’s hands are more careful than mine… but until then… I’ll be holding my safety blanket nice and warm…
drafty duct
“… Don’t hide the broken parts , that I need to see.. she said like it or not, it’s the way it’s gotta be.you gotta love yourself, if you can ever love me.” -Whatever it takes by lifehouse ————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————- Something’s different now, one thing I didn’t know until today… air tastes sweeter than usual, and stars explode like galaxy… blankets are warmer as ever, and dreams starts to melt like ice cream… the floor plays with my every step and every pillow is always at its flipside. Do I have what it takes? To make you mine… Do I have what it takes to not run after time.. to hold in my hands eternity and your heart too… I do believe you had mine… from the moment I saw you…
